brutal

Wed, 18 Jul 2007 19:18:47 GMT

I think ive had this LJ since the end of '03. My girlfriend of the time helped me put one together. For months i would post something everyday, sometimes three or four times a day. I dont post that much anymore in here, who knows why. I have a new blog, so check it out here We'll see how it goes. byeee LJ

Wed, 20 Jun 2007 19:28:27 GMT

when this year began i never envisioned myself being in south dakota at any time. or el paso, or new mexico, or baton rouge, or any of the places we've visited so far. you loose a sense of time, and your sense of space becomes fragmented. the connections you make with a place become lost with the passing of the next day. the time between these places is a no mans land. devoid of life except for every 250 miles where that one gas station exists; which is only a waystation to your next destination. Which ironicly is another checkpoint to a checkpoint, to a checkpoint. the most intesting part is the loss of any sense of time. on a small scale it is present and apparent to us. on the larger scale, it is lost. yet we continue onward. space exists without time. a product of our observations, a mesurment of moments. fleeting and intabable

Thu, 17 May 2007 15:00:36 GMT

i need to pay my sidekick bill

this summer i need lots of booze, lots of new sites to see, lots of down time, lots of do whatever i want time. lots of fast food time, followed by lots of bike time. lots of family time, and lots of pool side time. lots of photo time, and more booze after that. im living, im breathing, im taking it all in as i go.

ps. have fun taryn, be safe

Thu, 03 May 2007 20:41:17 GMT

for personal reference
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as of may 3rd, 2007

LIAN LI PC-6070Bplus II Black Aluminum ATX Mid Tower... $179
or a cheap case for ~$90-100

MSI P6N SLI-FI LGA 775 NVIDIA nForce 650i SLI ATX Intel MoBo... $119

Intel Core 2 Duo E6600 Conroe 2.4GHz LGA 775... $227

~160GB 7200rpm HD... ~$50-80

CORSAIR XMS2 2GB (2 x 1GB) 240-Pin DDR2 SDRAM DDR2 800 (PC2 6400)... $160

Thermaltake TR2 W0070RUC ATX 430W Power Supply 115/230 V... $40

EVGA 512-P2-N635-AR GeForce 7950GT 512MB 256-bit GDDR3 PCI Express x16 KO Video Card... $219

Creative SB card... ~$60

Microsoft XP SP2... $100

extra fans and crap... a few bucks

Total... ~$1100

shit, more than i was looking to spend, but that rig should last me some time.
i hope i didnt forget anything

Thu, 03 May 2007 15:17:23 GMT

in aprox. 1 month i will be leaving for tour with watching tigers die. nationwide. and soon afterwards i will be moving away from delaware for good? i shall return to the east coast. it has always been my home. where? thats undecided. but there are so many people i will miss while im gone, and who i could never just push out of my life now that ive met them.

kiel is the older brother i should have had while i was growing up. ill miss him just as much as ill miss chris the younger brother who is actually older than me, that i wish i had growing up. ill miss living in this house with them. drinking on the porch roof. buffalo wild wings on thursday nights, playing warcraft with chris sitting on my bed. the constant music playing from somewhere else in the house, and the constant guitar playing from either to my left or below me. kiel always yelling at me because i either broke something, or was about to break something of his. ill miss my room. set up the same way it was when i moved it all in here. to me it is my safe spot.

cory is the one girl i wish i met when i was younger, one of those constants in your life that you always have around. i regret not spending as much time with her as i could. even when she moved back to philly.

matt has slowly become one of my best friends. from first seeing each other at shows, then to hanging out with him from time to time, to this year hanging out and going to bars and playing vid games and double dates. actually ill miss all the tiger boys.

taryn and lauren. i think the earliest lj post involving lauren was on jan 16 2006, so ive known both of them for well over a year now. ill miss laurens awkwardness with every possible situation. and ill miss taryn's constant smile and her ability to laugh at everything. oh and ill def miss dolce and bane. i miss parties at their old apartment. too many memories of passing out, being passed out on..., long talks on the porch, walks to geno's, holes in the floor, my first time puking, watching sex and the city or Saw movies, sitting in my car almost crying? when did that happen?

as little as ive seen lizz since i met her, i will miss her. who cant miss a girl who goes into berserker rages when she drinks?

i will miss others, and some i have already forgotten. to everyone not mentioned who i dont really feel like typing out, ill miss seeing you at parties dancing and always feeling comfortable and having a good time in your presence.

Sun, 29 Apr 2007 15:11:52 GMT

each moment fleeting
we are only tied together by a series of them
temporary

to accept this is to realize how frail we really are

Fri, 27 Apr 2007 14:50:48 GMT

someone buy this bed for me

Tue, 10 Apr 2007 00:05:49 GMT

grindhouse later this week with taryn and matt? dbl date yep.
im about to pick up pizza and watch tvs with kekeeeeee

Fri, 02 Mar 2007 20:40:32 GMT

are you fucking $eriou$

photo

Thu, 01 Mar 2007 18:11:37 GMT

i have lost it, i am loosing my aim
i have held my breath for far too long
with something you just need to breath day in and day out
my passion, my goal, this arrow has fallen too short
knock another one, i shall not waver

Sun, 25 Feb 2007 01:41:08 GMT

reno 911 movie,
dinner follows,
drinking ensues
good times had

Fri, 16 Feb 2007 04:19:23 GMT

i eat horribly
i dont put on any weight
i have a beautiful girlfriend
sometimes i can be an asshole, im starting to realize that
i make lots of money
i spend nearly all of it before i get paid again
i buy food, and toys and more food for keke
im level 70 in warcraft
my room is clean
my nose is really stuffy
and im really happy

it smells weird in my room though...

Thu, 18 Jan 2007 21:57:26 GMT

Sun, 07 Jan 2007 07:27:58 GMT

oh shit im really drunk

but this past year has been on of the best of my life for many reasons but mostlyu becuause of keke

i love her with all my little heart

Sat, 06 Jan 2007 21:09:04 GMT

Ive started a new project, one im very excited about.
Ill be putting my money towards something ive been pondering but havent moved forward with for almost a year now.

More to come.

Sun, 31 Dec 2006 21:47:12 GMT

another year gone by, a million stories written.
tonight ill celebrate not the passing of time,
but the moments within it,
and loved ones ive shared them with.
do the same, life is ment to be enjoyed.

merrry crhsitmasas!!

Mon, 25 Dec 2006 17:57:52 GMT

and of course keke
im glad she is here with me, i just hope she had a nice christmas as well
<3

Wed, 20 Dec 2006 01:59:37 GMT

shes cool i guess

i like how this turned out, tried something alittle different in editing

Thu, 07 Dec 2006 23:29:27 GMT

the last few months have been nothing short of amazing.
i live with the love of my life, i get to sleep with her every night and wake up to her face every morning. and despite worries of this putting a stress on our relationship, us living together has only been exactly what i wanted. i couldnt deal with not being by her side for months on end. i have a new job at wings to go/freddys wraps where i make shit tons of food every day for college students and the guy who owns the dungeons and dragons store across the street. i get paid more, and work twice as much as my last job. after being $500 in debt to the bank i finally got out of it and paid rent on time this month. despite the minor set back of putting off paying 2 months of our comcast bill and loosing internet and digital cable for 4 days... its back up and running.. ill just be about $200 in the hole until this coming thursday, no biggie. i got a new hair cut. ive cut back on playing warcraft (somewhat). the weather is getting colder and we had our first flurries this winter the other day. im excited for christmas, mostly because i get to spend it with keke. and while i know she misses her family and friends, i want to do the best i can to make her feel at home here too. i have amazing friends, an AMAZING girlfriend, and a fun job that pays well for now i couldnt ask for more.

Wed, 15 Nov 2006 23:11:53 GMT

i was so excited to get off work and come home to see her smiling face,
where the fuck did she go?
come hooooome

Fri, 10 Nov 2006 05:27:45 GMT

when we kiss, the earth will shake

Fri, 03 Nov 2006 01:50:24 GMT

shes become apart of my everyday life
and that makes me happy

Fri, 13 Oct 2006 02:15:16 GMT

new converge
brutal
new hair cut
jeffrey project runway

Wed, 11 Oct 2006 06:06:41 GMT

im so tired
its an oven in my room
and she is asleep on my bed
today was tough, tomorrow will be better

i think ill go sleep by her side now.

i love you

Fri, 06 Oct 2006 23:49:13 GMT

money money money
we'll be ok
i just need you here